The Airs are Slowing...

We just experienced our annual full moon in Cancer.

I always feel like this moon is either very comforting or very chaotic. Always the first of the year, it usually acts as a river channel to the year before. 

For some this can leave you stuck in the past but for others this acts as your welcoming home, your first real step into 2023; the starting point for the upcoming flow.

I find the Ego is on my mind today. The fickle protector. The thing that says “I am”. 

And lately, it seems everyone is listening, speaking and breathing from this piece that was never meant to run the show (the bouncer that took stage).

How often do we let the story of our Ego’s eclipse what really is? 

At what point in your defenses will you drop your guard? 

The honest answer is - never. 

There’s no way to drop your guard while remaining defensive. The identity of needing to prove yourself will die before you ever truly receive. 

But then you’ll receive it all. Without all the defensive mechanisms, projections, trauma responses - without the rigid-cold feelings of aloneness. 

It’s in this place you truly Open to the magic of the universe. 

I used to hold being Seen as a very big need of mine, and it was only in the reclamation of Myself that those feelings began to subside. 

Standing in my power - I feel less concerned that the right people will come. Less worried that I might not be received. More relaxed in the face of those that 𝘥𝘰𝘯’𝘵 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘪𝘵. 

This Cancer full moon, I hope you find that the waters in yourself have been made calm. 

The airs have slowed from a tornado to a breeze. 

And that there is space, for You to finally show up. Above all the elements. Above your ego. Above the trauma your fists grow tired of latching towards. 

For all those unready to show up, and to all those I showed less up for in the past: 

we’re shouting the ho’oponopono prayer today—

I’m sorry. 

Please forgive me. 

Thank you. 

I love you. 

I’m sorry. 

Please forgive me. 

Thank you. 

I love you.

-Ani Khēmeia